I was talking about it with a friend few days ago and he told me that I still have a long time ahead of me, and I shouldn't be letting negative stuff running in my head and draining myself mentally thinking "why did it happen," "what have i done," "what if,".. ect. I thought to myself that he was right. If I continue and allow these negative thoughts feed my soul, I'm going to lost myself, and become depressed. Like seriously depressed.
What Ive been doing in the past 8 months have helped me moved on, but it did not heal me emotionally. The healing process is just about to begin.
I'm beginning to do 10 mins of meditation by Jon Kabat-Zinn every morning, excercise at California Fitness during my lunch break, go home right after work so I have time for myself and my loved ones instead of letting my mind "stray" again. I know I can do this. I can, I want and I will!
Meanwhile, I will start thinking about a list of stuff I want to do or achieve next. Gonna be an exciting list! Wheeee! xxx
Special thanks to S.D .... I miss you!
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| “Although no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.” ―Carl Bard |
